His name was Kirby and he was the eldest of four siblings. He was my husband, Kurt's, only brother separated by 11 yrs. He was a kind man with a generous heart. Kirby had a great sense of humor with a smile and laugh to round it out. He was probably one of our biggest supporters in our adoption process and we cherish a letter he wrote on our behalf for our home study showing his approval and support of our decision.
Words could never describe all of who Kirby was. He helped and impacted many people and there will be a huge void with him gone. The world could use more Kirby's.
When someone dies you begin to look at your life and what needs to change. You reevaluate and you vow to live the rest of your life without regrets. Your perspective changes.
I'm at that point.
We are given one life. I want to live my life well. I want to step aside so that people see Jesus in me. And, quite honestly, I've not done the past 46 yrs. very well. I get in the way of Jesus a lot. Thankfully, He uses me despite my pitiful self and He loves me just where I am. I'm grateful that He doesn't leave me there either. Rather, He comes alongside me, refines me, purifies me, encourages me, disciplines me...all because He loves me. And He loves you.
Unfortunately, there is a natural born barrier between us and God called sin. Each one of us is guilty of sin. The Bible says, "For ALL have sinned and fall short of the glory of God." (Romans 3:23) We are all sinners.
God is holy, perfect, righteous and just--and because He is all of those things, He cannot tolerate sin. He has to punish sin...he must punish those who are guilty of breaking His laws. Romans 6:23 says, "For the wages of sin is DEATH, but the gift of God is ETERNAL LIFE through Jesus Christ our Lord." Sin separates us from God both now and for all eternity. Sin is death. It paints a pretty grim outlook...thankfully it doesn't end there.
The Bible tells us that God sent His one and only son, Jesus, to bear our sin and give us eternal life.
For God so loved the world (that means YOU and I)
that He gave his one and only begotten son,
that whosoever believes in Him,
should not perish but have eternal life.
God made a way for you and I...for all mankind BUT we must believe that Jesus died for us personally. Jesus died for ME. I put him on that cross. My sin nailed him there and he took the punishment for my sin. Thank you, Jesus, for loving ME that much!
Good works won't get me to heaven. Eph. 2:8-9 says, "For by grace are you saved through faith and not of yourselves, it is a GIFT of God, NOT BY WORKS so that no one can boast." It is a gift...the gift of believing that Jesus died for my sins..that his blood covers me. Wow!
Believing in Jesus means more than just knowing certain facts. It is not a head knowledge but rather a matter of the heart. There is a heart change because:
I realize that I am a sinner deserving God's judgement. I deserve hell.
I know that there is nothing that I can do to remove my guilt and penalty of sin.
I realize that Jesus is the only answer for sin. He paid the price for my sin.
Because I believe all those things, I put my faith and trust in Him alone. I receive His gift of love.
I made the decision to ask Jesus into my life many, many years ago as a young child. I am 110% sure that some day I will go to Heaven and see loved ones who have gone on before me and worship at the feet of my Savior...for all eternity.
How about you? Will I see you there?