Hebrews 12:1-2
"...let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfector of our faith..."

Friday, May 25, 2012

Blessed Indeed







Throughout the past two weeks, I've been reflecting on Mother's Day, and how different it looked this year.  Two years ago it was not on our radar that we would be adopting.  At that time, I was anticipating all of the emotions that would come in watching our son graduate high school and his leaving home for college that next fall.  I was looking forward to being able to focus much of my time and energy on our daughter and her activities in her last few years of high school.  Though I never wished for our kids to hurry and grow up, I was seeing the future that Kurt and I would have together--alone--when our kids left home.  I saw the "me" time, to enjoy all that I want to do...and all of it was appealing.


But God had other plans.  His plans came in the form of two little boys, adopted out of hard places.  In all honesty, in the difficult moments or the days when I'm really tired, I think of how close in grasp those "me" days were...and they still seem really appealing.  Having said that, I would never, NEVER want to go back to those days without our little boys.  Kurt and I have said over and over again that we are so thankful that we said "yes" to God.  We know that if we would have rejected His call to adopt, we would now be living in a world of regrets.  To reject His call, in whatever aspect of life, is rejecting Him and that's not a place where we desire to be. 


The amazing thing of the past 13 weeks since the boys have come home is the refining that Christ is doing in my life and heart.  THAT is a very humbling situation to be in...and it is NOT fun...BUT, it is something to be THANKFUL for.  I have prayed that God would reveal sin in my life that I was not aware of or not wanting to see as sin.  The ugly side of that is becoming aware of how truly sinful of a person I am and shedding the prideful sin of "me".  BUT the beauty of it all is that all that MUST take place in order for me to become more like Christ, to be used more effectively by Him.  


Romans 8:28
"And we know that in all things God works
 for the good of those who love him, 
who have been called according to his purpose."  

This verse is so very sweet to my soul right now.  It breathes hope and encouragement into me.  It is a promise from the very mouth of God.  What a privilege and honor to be a vessel for the purpose of the Most High God.  This verse doesn't apply to only those called to full-time ministry such a pastor or missionary, this verse applies to EACH and EVERY believer.  WE are those "who have been called according to his purpose".  It looks different in the life of each person BUT we must all be open and willing to do His what He asks.  


It is comforting and a thrill to read the first three words of the verse, "AND WE KNOW..."  There is no doubt.  It is factual.  It is stating that we can claim the promise that "IN ALL THINGS GOD WORKS FOR THE GOOD OF THOSE WHO LOVE HIM".  As my heart soaks up that promise, I am calmed and at peace.   Above all, I am humbled that as He is refining me He is also entrusting me to mother four incredible children of all ages.  I am so blessed.




2 comments:

  1. Love this post, Lisa. I pray that your God story will inspire others to obedience. And wow, lots of refining going on over in my neck of the woods, too. That simple, well-known verse in Romans is so encouraging to me right now, too. Thanks for sharing what God is doing in your heart. We should hang out soon!

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  2. Love your heart, Lisa! I miss spending time with you, but I love knowing that the reason we're both busy now is for such eternal purposes. The "new" picture of your family brings a smile to my face.

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