Hebrews 12:1-2
"...let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfector of our faith..."

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

The Truth Is...

The truth is I am  discouraged and I am fearful.  I cried today. 

There is so much that I wish I could put into this post.  With our adoption process incomplete, those details cannot be shared "here".  We absolutely cannot do anything to hinder getting our two little boys home.  The country from which we are adopting has always had unrest but it is now experiencing even more instability.  We wonder how it will affect our process and even the safety of our children.  I am worried

Lord, have you brought us this far
for "all this"?
Is this really your plan?

It is hard to explain to someone how God speaks to a believer--but He does.  He sometimes speaks in a whisper that is not audible to the human hear, but rather to the deepest part of your heart and soul.  His words penetrate to those very spots and reveal sin (discouragement, fear and worry) and speak truth...

"I took you from the ends of the earth,
from its farthest corners I called you.
I said, 'you are my servant';
I have chosen you and have not rejected you.
So do not fear, for I am with you;
do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you;
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand."
Isaiah 41:9-10

Thank you, God, for loving me so much
and reminding me of your promises.
Thank you for calling Kurt and I to serve you through adoption.
We are humbled.
Thank you for choosing two little boys on
the other side of the world to call "ours".
We are grateful.
Please forgive me.  I have sin in my life.
am fearful of circumstances that I cannot control.
I am discouraged and I am worried.
Thank you for the promise that you are always with us.
Father, protect them with your strong arm.
Thank you that you are my God...the God of the universe
and that nothing surprises you or is out of your control.
Strengthen me even now.
Help me.
Uphold me to be able to accomplish your purpose
and to obey your will.
Uphold me with your righteous right hand.

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"If the Lord delights in a man's way
he makes his steps firm,
though he stumble, he will not fall,
for the Lord upholds him with His hand."
Psalm 37:23

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Would you join us in praying for our adoptions?  God knows the details.  We are asking for Him to work a miracle in the remainder of the process so that our boys will remain safe and come home quickly.


  1. I'm loving you- all the way from Ames. ;) and praying this instant. Thank you for your vulnerability and example to take it to the Lord.
    Love you both!

  2. Oh Lisa, this post is reminding so much of the uncertainty that we faced in Justice's adoption. I'm reminded of some verses that I repeated to myself over and over after we stood there in Ghana and realized the Embassy wasn't going to give us his visa...praying these for you now~

    Psalm 20 especially verses 1,4,7: May the Lord answer you when you are in distress; may the name of the God of Jacob protect you...May he give you the desire of your heart and make all your plans succeed...Some trust in chariots and some in horses, but we trust in the name of the Lord our God.

    Psalm 27 especially verses 1-7: The Lord is my light and my salvation- whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life- of whom shall I be afraid? When evil men advance against me to devour my flesh, when my enemies and my foes attack me, they will stumble and fall. Though an army besiege me, my heart will not fear; though war break out against me, even then I will be confident.

    That last verse would always build me up and give me the heart to press on. Love you guys....I know God has a plan.