Today we received news that the oldest referral was lost. The older of the boys was not available for us to adopt--he had already been placed with another family. It was an unfortunate mistake. This little boy had already won our hearts with his HUGE brown eyes. He looked mischievously shy...ornery...and I already loved him. So, in all honesty, as I write about this little boy that I never held, who is no longer ours...I tear up. I am feeling a loss and my heart is grieving. BUT, I am overjoyed to think that he DOES have a family...somewhere...and they love him and are waiting to hold him in their arms.
God is so gracious. Before ever receiving the loss of our referral this morning, I had done my quiet time from Jesus Calling. God was so good in preparing my heart beforehand using this devotional. I want to share it with you....
"I AM INVOLVED in each moment of your life. I have carefully
mapped out every inch of your journey through this day, even
though much of it may feel haphazard. Because the world is in
a fallen condition, things always seem to be unraveling around
the edges. Expect to find trouble in this day. At the same time,
trust that My way is perfect, even in the midst of such messy imperfection.
Stay conscious of Me as you go through this day, remembering
that I never leave your side. Let the Holy Spirit guide you step
by step, protecting you from unnecessary trials and equipping
you to get through whatever must be endured. As you trudge
through the sludge of this fallen world, keep your mind in
heavenly places with Me. Thus the Light of My Presence shines
on you, giving you Peace and Joy that circumstances cannot touch."
Psalm 18:30; Isaiah 41:13
In the midst of loss, we have great JOY in the little one that is OUR SON. We will never jeopardize our adoptions by giving specifics but I can tell you that he is little and he is a cutie!
WE GIVE PRAISE TO GOD FOR OUR SON!