My next few posts are going to be remembering some things from the beginning of our adoption process. I'm referring to them as bread crumbs--moments when God lays circumstances out so that we know we're following His path.
Back in September, we looked at many adoption agencies. To find agencies, we spoke with several couples who had adopted, went to meet with an area agency, researched on the internet, spoke with our attorney, made phone calls, and checked references. We really loved the agency here in our area but they did not have a program into the country where we desired to adopt from. In the end, our list came down to two agencies and, after thinking and praying, we finally selected one.
Our agency's costs were actually higher than the agency that we did not select. We felt that the additional costs were for the good of our children and worth the additional expense. Despite all that, our minds kept "hoping" that we were choosing the correct agency for our family. We knew a lot of money would be going into the adoptions and we wanted to be wise.
It was time to fill out our first (general) application form along with our first (minimal) check. I was working on the application and my heart began to quicken as I thought of writing our first adoption check. Remember, I was really struggling early on with the monies involved in adopting. As I finished up the application, I asked Kurt to look it over for any mistakes. He came to where I was--with a check in hand. He told me the check was for some back pay that his employer owed him and that he had been saving it since we had started talking about adopting. Kurt then said, "I don't know how much we need to send in with our application, but you can use this towards it." I told him we needed $175. He handed me the check. It was for $177.49. That amount was HUGE for me because, at that moment, God smashed not only the doubts of "which" agency we should have used but my fears of the money. I felt that He was speaking directly to me and having pure delight in showing that He would indeed provide for our adoption.
The story could stop there...but it doesn't. Over the next two weeks we received 4 checks in the total amount of $250. One check was for selling an item at a second hand store and the other three checks were random, unexpected refunds. I realize that the amounts of $177 and $250 do not sound large compared to the total amount we will spend on adoptions, but they were invaluable gifts of God's love and provision. I cried when each of those checks arrived in the mail. I have cried as we have received money gifts from family/friends. I cry a lot these days...but I cry because we feel really, really loved.