Hebrews 12:1-2
"...let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfector of our faith..."

Thursday, February 10, 2011

I'm Finally Starting to Get It

There are two questions that people usually make when it comes to adoption.  I, myself, have asked both of them.

Why does the adoption process take so long?
and
Why does it cost so much?

I want to address the first question because, as I said in one of my posts, it is hard to be patient.  As I was praying and reflecting on the subject of patience even yet today, it became a little clearer "why".  Today I realized that with each day that passes, my passion for two little children...OUR children...grows deeper and stronger.  It makes so much sense.  If someone would have plopped two children in my lap the very day we said "yes" to adoption, I would have been scared to death, clueless and, in all honesty, not feeling like I really loved them.  This process has allowed me to give my fears up, become more knowledgeable in various areas and grow a love for our kids.  At the beginning of the process, I addressed them as "the kids that we are going to adopt".  Now I say "our kids". 

My friend, Jess, who is also adopting described the journey best when she so wisely said:
"My fears are being set aside in faith to THE CREATOR who made us all and THE ONE who sees the whole picture at once! It makes me that much more eager to get our kids home, along with the good or not so good times. I'm at the point where, if God says no somewhere along the road, I would just be heartbroken. But somehow I'd even have to submit to that . . . Joyfully? Kind of strange to think that my wrestle with God about pursuing adoption has turned into a pleading for it to become accomplished!"
                                                                 -Jess Crawford-

Fear turned into "pleading for it to become accomplished" could only happen over time....Yes, I'm finally starting to get it.


2 comments:

  1. Thanks for sharing your journey lessons. Waiting is difficult, no doubt. God has His perfect reasons for it though. Perfect song ~ love it!

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  2. Waiting = loving.... makes total sense. Praying for YOUR kids!! BTW - I loved the last post with the 2 empty picture frames just waiting for their pictures.

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