After we returned from Branson in September, we began soul searching to see if God truly was calling us to adoption. One particular afternoon I was on my way to our daughter's cross country meet. Quite often I will use the time when I'm driving alone for prayer. I just begin talking as if God is sitting right by my side. It's a habit that I started years ago when we lived in the country and I was constantly running from home to various school events and activities or to town for errands. On this particular trip, I had tears as I spoke to God.
"Lord, is this really what you're calling us to do?
I mean, it makes no sense to me. It doesn't
make sense when I look in the mirror and
it doesn't make sense when I look on paper.
And, I'm really scared."
As I pleaded with God, I ended asking that he would bring clarity to our decision and peace to my soul. It was at that point that a "bread crumb" appeared. The little billboard on Highway 141 going west to Perry came into view. Granted, it has probably been there for years and I've probably seen it each time that I've traveled that road, but that day I noticed it. I was paying attention and I saw it. The billboard said three simple words,
"PRAYER CHANGES EVERYTHING"
God had so beautifully orchestrated the timing of the billboard. It was not by chance. I knew that he was encouraging me to continue on in prayer and that he would change my heart to be in line with his.
Just as hungry birds came along and ate Hansel and Gretel's bread crumbs, I believe Satan tries to snatch our focus off the path so that we don't see bread crumbs. He wants us to feel lost, abandoned and without direction. So, as I'm reflecting on bread crumbs, I am reminded again that my focus needs to be daily on Christ. I believe that God directs us as believers but we must be focused on him--his path--so that we see the "bread crumbs".
"Do not be anxious about anything,
but in everything, by prayer and petition,
with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.
And the peace of God, which transcends
all understanding WILL guard your hearts
and your minds in Christ Jesus."