Hebrews 12:1-2
"...let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfector of our faith..."

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Disobedient Coward

Obedience is not always easy.  It is, however, a choice.  The choice is simply...to obey or to disobey.  As God worked on my heart to adopt, he used not only his Word to convince me but he also used the following statement from The Hole in Our Gospel to convict me.

"What if there are children who will suffer
somehow because I failed to obey God?
What if my cowardice costs even one child
somewhere in the world his or her life?"

The statement echoed in my mind and heart over and over again.  It haunted me daily.  I knew that if I were to disobey God's direction of adoption, that I could very possibly be costing not one child...but rather two children their lives.  I use the word "I" in this post because the coward was in me, not Kurt. 

The Bible says that one day we will all stand before God and give an account for our lives.  I knew that I didn't want to stand before him and hang my head in shame because I blatantly disobeyed.  

Therefore, I choose to obey.  I don't want to be a disobedient coward.

 I will choose to believe that my God is able to
do immeasurably more than all I ask or imagine,
according to his power that is at
work within me.  Eph. 3:20

"Father God, fill me with the power of your Holy Spirit and blow my mind!"


  1. I love that book....that quote really got engraved in my soul as well!

  2. The title of your post caught my attention. Wow. Great thoughts.

  3. I understand this post so completely, Lisa! I remember sitting and talking with God about moving out here to Colorado...I was starting to drag my feet one day, uncertainty was setting in, and I was saying things like, "I don't know if I really want to go, God." When He gently spoke to me and said, "Jodi, would you go if it was for ONE woman?" I open hearted, with no doubts, responded with a great big, "YES!" I knew at that moment I would move my whole family to a state where we knew nobody if it meant ONE woman would know HIM. He gives us EVERYTHING we need...EVERY DAY...and walking in obedience is ALWAYS worth it! AMEN!!

  4. PS. I also was the coward as Craig never doubted or looked back, once! ;)